Not that long ago, I made a decision. A decision to change the path I was on. And this path, ironically, led me to the decision to stop walking paths altogether.
I would jump the fence, so to speak. I would absorb all the beauty around me, I would melt myself into the earth and the earth would melt into me.
I would absolutley refuse the assumption of a linear path and instead, I would find a piece of land without any paths at all, and I would sit right down.

I would no longer force nature, instead, I would become a force of nature itself.

And in my quiet contemplation, what I have discovered has only reinforced my original decision;

Coincedences, seemingly random and meaningingless in an aggresive and distracted world, have begun weaving themselves more and more distinct and purposeful in my calm reflection. And instead of pointing me in a direction, they all point INSIDE of me, towards dormant thoughts and emotions.
And while these volumes of "coincedences" are far to numerous to list here, there is one I would like to share, that weaves itself through basically everything I have learned:


In the beginning I mentioned a decision I had made. This decision was to leave my then oppressive situation outright, and to live life how I thought it should be lived, to the best of my capability.
Through this I came to find myself and several of my friends in the possesion of Salvia Divinorum. (What I would later learn, is that this is also called "The Sage of Seers") It is a natural plant that causes hallucinations, much more potent than marijuanna, and has been used by shamans and seers for years innumerable and has always been thought of as something (at least mildly) divine.

After inhaling the magical smoke of this plant I found myself in a very divine place, outside the realm of normal reality. I was a piece of the outside of a circular wall, inside of which, was the entirety of the universe as it is known to humans.
Outside however, was a vast, powerful ocean of color, stirring and crashing against the wall. This place was beyond reality, it was god.

At the time this didn't really mean anything to me either than it was just a powerfully spiritual experience. But as I started to become more sensitive to these coincedences around me, I began researching and eventually came across several ancient philosophies. Most specifically Hinduism. Everything I read seemed to make perfect sense to me, it seemed to click somewhere deep inside,

This is something I need to know.

And soon I discovered an interpretation of some of the defining beliefs that most Hindus share in common, but what shocked me most was the specific wording the author used;

"They also believe in an infinite ocean of divine energy that underlies the universe we percieve with our senses and an inner universe of consciousness through which we connect with the whole."

This author has, basically verbatim, explained my divine vision months earlier that I didn't understand.

So here I sit, glass waterpipe in one hand, bag of the 'sage of seers' in the other, just wishing I could take you with me.

Maybe next time.

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